Sunday, March 14, 2010

Obedience

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given to you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples." John 15: 5-8

I knew it had been a while since I had last written here, but didn't realize it was that long ago! I am praying for the discipline to write here regularly again and pray also that some of you will help hold me accountable to that!

God has really been convicting me of a bunch of stuff lately. For the past month or so, our pastor, Tim Parsons, at Center Point Church in Lexington, has been sharing a wonderful and challenging series about the Pursuit of Holiness. He told us he took some of the material from a book of the same name by Jerry Bridges, but all I can tell you is that God is using Tim's messages, combined with some books, a Bible study I've just started, some recent daily devotionals to all work together to help me process some things I've been stuggling with for about two years.

I truly praise God for all that He's been showing me throughout the past few weeks. It's not that He hasn't tried before, but because of His use of all these things, I am now listening intently and am convicted to be obedient about some things I've let slide for too long.

A few weeks ago I was asked to informally share a few minutes about what God is doing in my life at a women's gathering. Well, since He's been doing so much, it was somewhat hard to choose. I always have to organize my thoughts in writing before speaking to a group - at least when I know in advance I'll be saying something. Otherwise, I tend to go in tangents &/or babble!

Well, yesterday, in an effort to keep it informal, I didn't use my notes. I just hope what I did end up sharing glorified God, just as I hope and pray what I intended to share glorifies Him. Because God truly laid this message on my heart, I want to share it now with whomever might read this.
Some of it I did share yesterday, but I think this is the better version! :-)

I want to share a quote a friend put on facebook last week. You've probably heard it, but I thought it was great!

Live your life in such a way that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, Satan shudders in dismay and says, "OH NO, she's awake!"

I want to be that woman! This is truly my heart's desire and I believe it is God's desire for each one of us.

I want to be so grounded in my faith and so initimate in my walk with Jesus, that the enemy runs and hides when he sees me! I want the love of Jesus to shine out so brightly from me every day in all I say and all I do that even if I don't mention His name, believers recognize me as their sister in Christ and unbelievers will be curious enough to ask me why I am who I am.

I have to tell you, I have a LONG way to go! But, I really want to get there!

God has used Tim's series and other materials I've read lately to convict me of so many things, but most importantly, He's used them to reawaken my desire to deepen my relationship with Him in total surrender.

So, here's the primary point I want you to take away from what I'm sharing today -

There is NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING more important in your life than your relationship with Jesus Christ. NOTHING!

That is something I've had "head" knowledge about for a long time, but keeping that surrender and commitment consistently deep in my heart has been a roller coaster ride for me. I am ready to get off the ride and fully experience the abundant life Jesus Christ has for me - every day!

That is obviously not something that comes easily to me. Don't get me wrong, I am totally in love with Jesus. I do love Him with all my heart and soul. I never truly doubt Him. He is my savior, my comfort, my joy, my teacher and so much more.

But, I still struggle with having the self-discipline to totally let go of me each and every moment of each and every day and replace me with total surrender to Him. That's truly my heart's desire and His desire for each of us.

Some of you have heard about how God brought David and me to Lexington about 2 1/2 years ago. My job was eliminated in May of 2007 and I have to tell you that the next four months were some of the best of my life so far. Especially my spiritual life - we totally turned the situation over to God and committed to being obedient to wherever He led us.

God gave us bright neon signs that made it clear we were to come to Lexington. He wanted us to leave our home town of 24 years, our church family of 16 years where we were very active and most of all, our family and friends. He made it so clear it was His will, we didn't question, we simply obeyed. Not for the job I was offered, but because we knew God wanted us here for some reason.

I expected Him to continue with neon signs and when He didn't, after about four months, I sort of woke up and thought, "OK, God, was our obedience enough, can we go back home now?!"

Instead of drawing closer to Him, I started drifting asway - not totally, but letting worldly things, like being politically correct at work instead of sharing His word with co-workers, interfere. I didn't get invloved in anything awful, but I spent less time with Him and I began feeling unsettled and wanting to move back to BG. It took me months to even hang photos on the walls of our new home.

God has made me realize recently that I am missing out on so much He has to offer here for us and through us, because my heart has still been in Bowling Green and distracted by what I think I'm missing there. One of the scriptures God used this week to help me recognize that was John 15: 5-8 (quoted above).

It has taken almost two years now for me to totally accept that He really does want us here. I still am not sure exactly why, but He does. And I know that as long as I allow Him to, He will help me find consistent contentment here for as long as He wants me here. First and foremost, I am going to work harder at totally surrendering to Him and keeping Him the focus of all I say and do each day. I'm going to strive to be that woman who makes the enemy shudder!

I have recently been aware of several women my age and younger who have died suddenly and unexpectedly. Which brings me to the other point I want to make today. Do not wait to commit your life to total surrender. If you have not yet accepted Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and savior, I beg of you to do that today. If you are a beliver, I pray that you will commit with me today to work harder on your relationship with Jesus Christ sincerly striving for holiness and total surrender to Him.

I think we'll be amazed at the truly abundant life He has planned for each of us!

My prayer for today:

Father God, thank you so much for never leaving my side - even when I don't give you the attention you deserve. Thank you for reminding me how much better my life is when I allow You to be in the drivers seat instead of me. Lord, I want the abundant life that I know you want me to have. You have shown me areas in my life I need to work on improving my self-discipline and I know that only through totally surrender and reliance on You, can that happen. Thank you, Jesus for teaching me these lessons and for your mercy and forgiveness. Thank you most of all for my salvation. I love you. I pray all this in the precious name of Jesus. Amen.



Sunday, September 27, 2009

Gossip? Who, me?!

And whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God the Father. Colossians 3:17 (New Living Translation)

This is one of my favorite verses and I try to live by it every day. Sometimes it's definitely not an easy thing to do! It's a very serious (& sometimes scary!) responsibility to be a representative of our Lord Jesus!

Several years ago God convinced me not to gossip. Let me tell you, that was such a challenge at the beginning that I often struggled to come up with something to talk about! When I was growing up, my mother always told me if I didn't have something good to say, not to say anything at all. Although I usually tried to be obedient to her, reminding myself that I am a representative of the Lord Jesus is an even stronger motivation to keeping my lips zipped!

It's funny how people pick up on you not participating in gossip without you telling them. At the beginning, I did tell some friends, but since we've moved and the people I'm around at work and elsewhere haven't really heard me gossip, they usually don't tell me gossip. When you don't know much gossip, it's much easier not to repeat it. I am thankful that temptations into this area are kept to a minimum in my life these days. Thank you, Jesus!

When co-workers, friends and family are aware you are a Christian, whether they consciously realize it or not, they are always watching you. Admit it, you watch and notice when your Christian friends do or say something that it not very "Christ-like." When I fall victim to "un-Christ like" behavior, what really burdens me is the possible effect that observing this could have on someone who is not yet a believer or is a new believer. I met a woman at a women's ministry leadership conference a few years ago who shared with us that she would have committed her life to Christ literally years sooner if it had not been for the behavior she observed in Christian women!

Keeping in mind that whatever I say or do I should do it "as a representative of the Lord Jesus" is a serious responsibility for sure. But, it is also an awesome privilege that I am blessed with as a child of God. I am forever thankful for this responsibility and privilege as well as for the blessings that result from living in obedience.

What about you? How do you feel about living your life as a representative of our Lord Jesus? Will someone observing how you live your life realize you are a believer and follower of Jesus? Has God shown you an area of your life you need to work on?

What has God said to you today through this verse?

My prayer for today:

Father God, thank you so much for loving me. Thank you for being patient with me and most of all for forgiving me when I don't live up to your expections of me as your representative. You know even better than I do that gossip is just one area you have shown me over the years that I need to change in my life.

The world is so loud! Even when we know in our hearts that following Your example is the very best way to live, it can be such a struggle to keep the world from creeping in. Father, thank you for the privilege of being your chosen child and thank you for putting me here on earth for your purposes. It is my heart's desire to glorify you in all I say, do and think each and every day. You know I can't do it without you by my side each step of each day. I thank you for always being right there with me. Thank you for forgiveness and mercy. Thank you for the sacifice you made through your son, Jesus Christ, going to the cross to bear the burden for my sins and those of each person who trusts Him with their life. It's in His precious name, I pray. Amen.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

The gift of today

". . . For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe even if you were told." Habakkuk 1: 5

OK - I know, I know - I just wrote about this same verse my last post. The problem is that when I was reflecting on this verse the other day, God was taking me this direction and then I went to Step by Step and I felt He wanted me to share how I saw the verse in action there.

But, I can't let the gift message go, so decided to share it as well.

Two wise, Godly women whom I'm blessed to know, Mimi and Shelley, the authors of "Holy Habits," spoke at a Holiday brunch I attended in 2007. Their gift to each attendee was a Chinese take out box - mine is pictured above. One of their teachings that day was to use visual clues as prayer reminders. Can you guess what the take-out box is a clue to?

No, it's not food or China related! Mimi suggested sitting it on your bedside table or dresser where you can see it first thing every morning even before you get out of bed. It is to remind you that each day is a gift from God. He is just waiting to unwrap blessings and opportunities (& yes, often times challenges!) for us each and every day! She suggested starting each day praying thanks to God for the gift of today and then asking Him to show you how He can use you that day.

When I read the verse above, it reminded me that God would absolutely love it if we approached each day with the same level of anticipation and excitement we have when we spot the biggest, brightest present under the tree on Christmas morning and realize it has our name on it! He would love it if we just cannot wait to see what He has planned for us that day just like we can't wait to see what's inside that great big box! Whether we rip the paper off in a rush or calmly and methodically remove it without tearing is up to us, but the gift inside is all ours! The same is true of God's gift of each day to us - it is all ours and He gave it specially to each of us! If He told us what was in it before we saw it, we couldn't even begin to believe all He had planned!

The next time you're tempted to groan and grumble about getting out of bed picture a brightly wrapped gift - or a white take out box - and realize that God has once again blessed you with the gift of another day!

What has God said to you today through this verse?

My prayer for today:

Gracious Heavenly Father, thank you, thank you , thank you - for the gift of today, yesterday and tomorrow! Please forgive me for the days I forget to thank you and ask you to show me or tell me what I can do for you today. Please help each of us keep our focus on you and keep the world with all its distractions, fatigue and tempations from interferring. Lord, please help us remember that your gift of today is also an opportunity for us to give back to you through our obedience and through serving others in your name and for your glory. Thank you, Lord Jesus! It's in your precious name, I pray. Amen.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Unbelievable!

" . . . For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe even if you were told." Habakkuk 1: 5

Thursday night I had the privilege to serve at the registration table during the first meeting this year of Step by Step, a non-denominational ministry to teen moms and their children. It was a great observation (& listening!) post!

The mission of Step By Step is "to provide an opportunity for salvation, and emotional and spiritual healing through Jesus Christ to young single mothers and their children, by walking with them step by step as they learn to lead productive, purposeful lives."

I could see the mission in action on so many levels!

Having worked in the nursery last year, I recognized several returning moms and babies. It was wonderful to see the babies' growth and to see the smiles on the moms' faces because they were so happy to be back at SBS! It was easy to spot the first timers - their faces showed uncertainty and sometimes a sense of hurt. It was so encouraging to see returning moms bringing new friends with them because they knew how much their friends could benefit from the program and especially from the love of Jesus.

"For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe even if you were told."

I could see it in the faces of the first timers "What am I doing here? What good is this going to do me?" But, "the rest of the story" of that verse was clearly illustrated by at least two stories I observed.

The first was a young mother wearing a Kroger shirt, holding one baby in her arms and another by the hand. She was beaming and couldn't wait to tell Susan and Terri, the SBS directors, that she is going to school and studying nursing! What progress she has made since last year! I suspect that if she were told last year that she'd be successfully balancing children, job and nursing school, she would not have believed it!

Even more touching was another mom who was also beaming - she had a glow about her that makes me believe she has Jesus in her heart! Susan was exclaiming over the change in her saying, "you do not look or act like the same girl who walked through those doors last year!" The young woman agreed and said co-workers had told her the same thing. While I don't know this particular young woman's story, I suspect it is like many others who have come to Step by Step broken, disheartened, discouraged and hurt looking for answers, love and acceptance. Susan and Terri, along with many volunteers, help these girls find Jesus and purpose in their lives.

Step by Step, like so many ministries, enables volunteers to serve as the hands and feet of Jesus, spreading his love, truth and light to those who so desperately need Him.

Has God called you to serve somewhere or in some way to help others find Him? There are so many opportunities! Just be prepared - you would not believe what He can do through you even if He told you the whole story beforehand!

If you'd like to learn more about Step by Step, please visit http://www.sbslex.org/.

What has God said to you today through this verse?

My prayer for today:

Father God, thank you so much for giving us opportunities every day to serve you through serving others. You may have different plans and different ways for each of us to serve, but help us remember that you will always equip us to do what you have called us to do. You know the end from the beginning and we though we'd like to, we don't need to know it. We just need to be obedient when you call us to serve.

Thank you, Lord, for the success stories of so many who have been served and saved through the Step by Step ministry over the past 14 years. Please guide the leadership and volunteers in that ministry. Equip them spiritually, physically and financially to continue to do your work in Lexington and beyond.

Thank you, Lord for being who you are! In Jesus precious name. Amen.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Good grief!


"Even in laughter the heart may ache, and joy may end in grief." Proverbs 14:13

As you may have read in a previous post, we didn't plan to move to Lexington almost two years ago - we wanted to stay in Bowling Green where we lived for the past 24 years, and where our children (& now grandchildren!), my mother & step-father, David's brother, friends, etc. all live in or nearby. You get the picture. But God had different plans and brought us here.

Since we are only about 3 hours away, we try to visit pretty often - especially during the past 8 months since our precious twin grandbabies were born! It's been 5 weeks since we've last seen them and it's about to kill us! And, we still have about 1 1/2 weeks to go before we see them!

"Even in laughter the heart may ache, and joy may end in grief."
That verse perfectly describes my heart during some of our visits to BG. I can't wait to get there! Our visits always include so much laughter and fun, but I sometimes find myself missing them in the midst of the visit - anticipating the loss of their company while I'm still in the room with them! How crazy is that? We often have a silent ride home as the joy of the visit deflates with each mile we drive. Our youngest daughter, Sarah, recently spent about a week with us prior to moving to New Orleans and the emotions were the same - heart ache amidst the joy.

It was such a relief when God showed me that I have been experiencing grief, not for the loss of a loved one who departed the earth, but for the loss of our family life as we lived it & loved it for so many years. We will never be that same family we were 5 years ago or even 5 months ago. But, He has also reminded me that no amount of miles can take away our memories or our love for one another.

Recognizing my feelings as grief is helping me work through them and to recapture the excitement we had when God first brought us here! My heart's desires is to be a vessel for Him to use, so I can't wait to see what He has planned for us ahead! Just two chapters later in Proverbs 16: 3-4, God promises us "Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. The LORD works out everything for his own ends -"

My prayer for today:
My most gracious heavenly Father, thank you so much for your Word. I pray for my thirst for Your Word to continue to grow and grow - you have all the answers! I don't know why we ever bother to look anywhere else for guidance. Thank you for being the Great I Am and for always knowing just what I need to hear. Thank you so much for including me in your plans! Help me to keep my focus on you and to never forget that my true joy is in you and you alone. I don't want to let circumstances interfere with that. I love you and praise you for who you are and thank you so much for always keeping your promises. In your son, Jesus' precious name, I pray . . .

What has God said to you today through this scripture?

(In case you've never met them, Spencer and Kate are above - aka: precious grandbabies! And, thank you, Jenny, for the use of your photo.)

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Today is the day you worried about yesterday . . .

"Do not fret - it only causes harm" Psalm 37:8
"Commit your Way to the LORD, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass." Psalm 37: 5

This weekend we were at my brother-in-law's home, which is the home he and my husband grew up in. Although he has done extensive remodeling, he still has many items in the home that belonged to my in-laws.

It was nice to see an embroidered piece I did for my sweet mother-in-law, Kathleen, many years ago hanging on the kitchen wall. It says "Today is the day you worried about yesterday and all is well." Kathleen was a wonderful Godly woman with strong faith, but she was also a worrier. I made the sampler for her, but at that time in my life, it was advice I benefited from as well!

I think one of the biggest changes Jesus Christ has made in my life is in the area of worrying. I used to lay awake at night fretting over this and that - probably most of it were things that didn't matter much, but to me at the time, they were real sleep robbing concerns. I have a vivid imagination and can make something out of nothing in the blink of an eye! Back then I didn't always think about turning my concerns over to God in prayer - unless it was the "God, if you'll fix this for me this time, I promise I'll never do that again: kind of prayer.

I am so thankful that God has so much patience, mercy, love and forgiveness and has worked so hard to convict me not to worry, but instead to turn my concerns over to Him. Some days it's easier than others and some days I don't quite succeed, but (Praise the Lord!) I can't remember the last time I had a sleepless night! Now when I am tempted to worry about something, I count on Jesus to help me abide by Matthew 11:28-30, " Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you nad learn from me for I am gentle and humble in hears and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

AHHHH! What a relief!

My prayer for today:

Dear Lord, thank you so much for teaching me to rely on you. You have proven to me time and time again that you are in control. And, you do such an excellent job! I am so thankful you call me your own and continue to teach me new lessons each and every day - even the tough ones. Thank you so much for loving me. In Jesus name, I pray. Amen.

What did God say to you today through these verses?

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Scary Thought

"For as he thinks within himself, so he is . . . " Proverbs 23:7 NASB

We had a wonderful worship service this morning at Center Point Church in Lexington, KY. We heard from mission team members who recently returned from a week serving God in Brazil - it's always amazing and encouraging to hear and see how God is such a huge God and works in and through people throughout the world. I have to admit that hearing them and seeing the glow on their faces made me reminiscent of my mission trips and, yes, a bit jealous! But, I know in my heart that God can use us just as well here as internationally.

As always, at CPC, the music was awesome and "worshipful." But, what hit me closest to home was Tim's message. Based upon Philippians 4:8, it was part of a series on Philippians entitled "Living Life to the Fullest."

Philippians 4:8 says:
Finally, brethren,whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.

How does that verse make you feel? At first read, my response is something like, "Absolutely, Lord! That's exactly what I want to do!" And I sincerely mean it. However, living it every minute of every hour of every day is another matter.

Then Tim quoted Proverbs 23:7: "For as he thinks within himself, so he is . . ." . What a scary thought! But, it was just what I needed to hear. I know that I cannot obey Philippians 4:8 on my own. When left to myself, I will drown in a sea of negativity & who knows what else. Jesus is my lifeline to the life He wants me to live and to the life I want to live. And, it's a lifeline I need many times each and every day - that's why He instructs us to dwell on these things.

My prayer for today:

Lord Jesus, thank you for being my lifeline. Thank you for wanting more of me than I can imagine. Thank you for a wonderful church home where we hear your truth each and every time we gather. Thank you for putting people in our lives who remind us of who you are, who we are, what you expect of us and show us how we can get there. Please forgive me for all the times I fall short and thank you for your mercy and forgiveness. I love you.

What did God say to you today through these verses?